"I don’t want to leave a legacy of life evasion to my children. The legacy that was left to me. I want to teach them to love life, to embrace it, and to look to G-d, no matter the circumstances. I realize that my chances of teaching that to them, when I do not do it myself, are slim indeed. I remember a childhood of being disciplined or silenced for expressing a negative emotion. I remember thinking that my negative feelings were the cause of my mother’s stony silences, of my father’s anxieties. I remember wondering how it was that I came to be the Great Destroyer of Happiness, how I destroyed my family with my SELF. Oh, how I don’t want my children to feel that!
This human condition is messy at best, devastating at its worst. I don’t want to wake up one day, with my kids grown and wrinkles on my face, and realize that I wasted so many days just trying to get to the next day. I want to learn to embrace what is NOW, and to open myself up to seeing the beauty that G-d has placed in it. Now, just to get out of this trap of a head. I want nothing more than to pull down these lofty and theological ideals that I hold into the mess of my daily life."
More at my favourite blog of all time, http://weedragon.wordpress.com/2009/09/26/insufficient-love-to-frenzy-of-love/ Please visit it, but be prepared for a level of simplicity and honesty that will affect you and stay with you.
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